Thursday, April 22, 2010

Today was too quiet.

Today I found these little flowers in the front of my house that i've never seen before. As you can tell, they look like grapes. Plants are so fascinating that way, in my opinion. Besides doing my best to keep myself productive, as you can see in the picture of me above of the grape flower picture, I've been tired, all day. I woke up at 10 a.m. and fell back asleep, then woke up once again at 2:30 in the afternoon. I'm not really sure what's wrong with me, today just feels lazy, groggy. I feel like not doing much. All I want to do is take in my surroundings and breathe.
Last night at around 11pm, Jake Garn randomly asked me to do a photoshoot with him. Since I had nothing better to do, I went. I think it was definately worth it, I can't wait to see the photo's. Jake's energy is different each time I shoot with him. I feel more comfortable around him. I often have trouble being comfortable even being fully clothed in front of people. I don't know why, I'm trying to get over that issue. A womans body is beautiful, I know mine isn't too unfortunate. There is just something so... exposing? I guess would be the word. But I guess that should make sense, nude-expose... I don't know what my insecurity is about it. I think I just hate being looked at. Who know's what is going in someone's brain? There is some WEIRD people out there...
Btw, Images soon (hopefully, depending on how much I bug Jake).
So, before I begin on what I am about to complain about, let me start off the story first before I confuse you.
Last week I sprained my ankle in an attempt to dance drunk around a bonfire. Boy, what an epic night. I HATE the fact that I was the girl crying her eyes out on the couch. I know if that alcohol were not in my system, I wouldn't have been such a baby about it. Whatever.
So, it has been a little over a week now, and I have not drank since. And decided not to smoke pot either (being unemployed and all).
My ankle still kills (okay, here goes my complaining), and I wish I could take my dog on a walk. I'm sure I wouldn't be able to endure it, for my dog likes to yank me around everywhere.
I don't know why, but I feel like i'm just waiting for something to happen. Something that catches my interest enough. But for now, I am completely disconnected from the world outside of facebook and blogspot, disinterested of anything else. But, the night is young.

P.s. If anyone could tell me what type of flower/plant this is:
Let me know. I've tried googling it but I never can trust that thing so much anymore.

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